Why do I always have to be "next?" This weekend I went to/planned/half-threw a baby shower for my non-blood (or marriage) related sister. I love welcoming new life into the world with cake, diapers full of melted chocolate, bingo games and gifts. Yet the older I get, the more common it is that everyone else at the party has a child or is pregnant with one. I am not. I'm not there yet in my life. I am absolutely happy about this. I don't feel prepared for this yet. I don't want this yet. Or maybe ever...